My first vlog !

My first vlog is uploading on YouTube as i write this!  So excited ! I've been trying to vlog once a week and i have no clue how to edit video...I'm trying to learn. But I've been so scared to actually publish them online. You open yourself up to not only the good things like making new friend and hoping to help others, but you also open yourself up to criticism, and i get nervous about that. I've gained well over 100 pounds, and from someone who had a severe eating disorder as a teenager, from ages 13~19, this is hard ! I also worry that they will nitpick things like, your bottom teeth look crooked (i noticed that when i watched the video hahaha !) And my biggest fear is that someone may not like me. I love people. I love to help people. I always look for the good in people. I just love everyone. I am also a people pleaser, a nurturer, etc and i get ran over a lot, but it's ok. Because i want others to be happy. But there is just something in my heart that says, share your story ! You might help someone ! So, I'm going to just do it. :) so once it's uploaded....i will share it here, And probably on Twitter. ;) its the chronic illness tag that was started onto tumblr, and became a great YouTube thing. There aren't a lot of fibromyalgia ones on there so I'm excited to have it up...just nervous. Ok. Hope you guys have an awesome night !! :) love, jl ~fibromomma